YUMMYYY....

To be honest, I'm not a sweet-tooth. Ocassionally, i do indulge, depending on the occassion.

Thanx to the influence of my dearie, Ainaa, i was informed about a new bakery nearby the centre. After a few rounds of driving i found this bakery called "Taste Boutique".

Very small cafe like shop but weirdly situated in de middle of business lots. When i saw the cupcakes in display i was floating!! They were so beautiful and cute. And the names were so catchy...ChocNilla,Vanilla Paradise...i could go on and on.....

I think i shall just leave you with the pics and let your mouths water..:P

INTENSIVELY INTENSIVE WEEK!!

It's been quite a long absence since i last updated my blog. As you can see from the previous 2 posts....well...that explains it all!! Another reason would be just as the title of this entry suggests.

2nd week of Aug was a hectic week physically, phsychologically and emotionally. Had to handle a bunch of adolescences. My God!! I knew i was never a problem in school during 15 but i tell you these kids can really leave you in an awe!!

I just can't say much further the tiredness that i went through but have uploaded the pics for your viewing pleasure. This was suppose to be their intensive week classes for their PMR but i guess......stress does take you to another level in today's generation of youths.


THIS IS GI-GI..FAR BACK DE PROUD OWNER


THORN AMONG DE ROSES..."ST" NICH


CAUGHT IN THE ACT OF....??


ATTACK OF GI-GI!!


MY CUPCAKES LOVER..AINAA


YA...WE HAD A SUPERHERO ATTENDING CLASS TOO!!


PRETTY ARTISTIC RITE? NO!!! NOT WHEN I'M TEACHIN IN FRONT!!!


WELL, AT LEAST SHE GOT MY MESSAGE..I THINK....?


CLEAN& BRIGHT TEETH CAMPAIGN...


SOMEONE THOUGH THAT SHE COULD ACTUALLY CAMOUFLAGE INTO THIS TO ESCAPE CLASS!!!

LOST.....

Why is life so difficult? As it is life is unfair but why does difficulties just have to occur one after another?

This is how my life has been for the past 28 years. I can hardly remember my sweet memories, let alone count them! Going through ups and downs are part parcel of life but to be experiencing bad luck continuously is just so cursed!

How do I get out of this rut of mine? I’ve tried being calm, being to myself, isolation, silence and yet nothing has improved. Day by day, time after time my confidence and self-esteem just fades away. Sooner or later, I too might just fade away.

I’ve tried numerous ways of controlling my temper. Although there have been some improvements, there are times I blow my top off. Rather than temper it’s actually the fear in me that spoils everything. The fear of being looked down upon, fear of losing something or someone that I love and care more than my life. The fear of ending up being all alone.

I realize all the mistakes I’ve done in the past. I feel disgusted and ashamed of myself. I have attempted to end my life numerous times but to no avail. It is at that point of heartache that I make such decisions but when I rationalize the decision, it is sheer stupidity. I’m able to think of the bad and good but consequences are always disappointing.

I talk myself out of doing anything stupid and build the strength in me to get up and walk. But halfway through my journey I fall again. And it is never a trip or a slip, it’s always a terrible fall where I end up bleeding profusely. I’m full of wounds healed or not, scars that never fade and to make it worse there are those around me who add more salt to my wounds.

I’m not fully putting the blame others, I do know it’s is mine too. But don’t I deserve something good in life? Don’t I deserve care, love, compassion, happiness and justice?

I’m so used to giving so much of love and care in me to others but none I get back. There are times I’ve forgotten my self, been sick, got hurt but no one has been around for me. It has always been me to other’s rescue. I am there at anyone’s call, especially the one I love dearly. Sadly, I end up being blamed for all the wrong that happens, disrespected and unappreciated. My heart bleeds when accusations and harsh words are thrown at me.

Is this what I deserve for all that I’ve done? Why does this always happen to me repeatedly? Why is it I’m yet to learn a lesson? Why is it I’m still desperately seeking for true love? Is it that difficult to find such a priceless gift that God has given to each and every one of his creations? And exactly when do you know it is true love? I feel that I have found my true love but halfway through it’s not. Why do I have to go through all the way believing against all odds and suffer in the end?

Is there anyone out there suffering just like me? How do they cope? I never want to be a failure but just how is it that I pick myself up and march forward? How do I hold my head up high and face this cruel world? How do I make myself feel proud? How do I gain back my confidence, dignity and pride?

Overcoming a Broken Heart

Step One:

Allow yourself time to heal, and know that you can heal. Whether the loss is due to death, rejection, or other reason.
It is normal to grieve over a loss of a love for any reason.
It usually takes two to three years for a couple whose relationship has broken up to begin to put their lives back together again. It sometimes takes five years for individuals and families to get over the emotional pain and trauma. Many people can have serious health and emotional problems during this time.

Step Two:

Realize that you still can find happiness.
Realize that you can control how you think, what you think about, and how much.
A key is to concentrate on the positives you have in the present. Not thinking about the future or past.

Healing Helpers

Being around people and getting involved in helping others is a good way to accelerate the proces of healing.
Laughing helps too, so see a comedy, watch funny things. That is part of the reason the Irish have a party when someone passes away.
Helping others helps you loose sight of your own losses.
It is strongly suggested that you take the intensity of your feelings and re-direct them into doing something constructive that helps others. For me, it was creating this web site and doing volunteer work that helps others. Do volunteer work, it can help the healing process greatly. Especially, if the volunteer work envolves working with others, and feeling gratitude from those you are helping. The channeling the power of your feelings to accomplish constructive acts is very, very helpful.

Step Three:

Actively work to feel better.
Act happy and smile.

Even if you don't feel that way, it should start to make you feel that way.
Life will be better.

If you love something...let it go, if it comes back to you it was truly meant to be.
Love begins with a smile, grows with a kiss, and ends with a teardrop.
Nothing hurts more than realizing he meant everything to you, but you meant nothing to him.

Everyone tells me I should forget about you, you don’t deserve me.
They’re right, you don’t deserve me, but I deserve you.
I don’t miss him, I miss who I thought he was.

It’s hard to tell your mind to stop loving someone when your heart still does.
Moving on is simple, it’s what you leave behind that makes it so difficult.
Never be sad for what is over, just be glad that it was once yours.
I was born the day I met you, lived a while when you loved me,
died a little when we broke apart.

One day you'll love me, the way I loved you.
One day you'll think of me the way I thought of you.
One day you'll cry for me, the way I cried for you.
One day you'll want me, but I won't want you.
How can I forget you when you r always on my mind?
How can I not want you when you're all I want inside?
How can I let you go when I can't see us apart?
How can I not love you when you control my heart?

I wish you could look at me and see the person you once loved instead of the person you have grown to hate.

"I know in reality we can't be together, so I just close my eyes and you're right here with me... in my dreams you're mine forever."
"I was reborn when you first kissed me. Part of me died when you left me. But now I still live, waiting for the day you return to me."
"There is one pain I often feel which you will never know because it is caused by the absence of you."