Talk about "taking a break", "soul-searching", "Me-time"...I think my list would be never-ending. Oh yea, let's add the word PROCRASTINATE as well!!
I've been craving for a vacation since last year..or maybe even before that..but I'm still unable to go for 1!! Don't even think about places like Bali, Paris, UK or even S'pore....I cant even make it to Penang-la!! There's always this stupid issue of finance, it's NEVERENDING!!!
However, I finally set my feet down and decided to go Penang during my birthday weekend...cos I'm desperate to leave this current town that I'm residing in. My spirits and confidence were soaring up high...I was event preparing my transportation to and fro the bus station!! My accomodation was prepared as well. I was daydreaming of being with my BGFs, Lat and Stef and another counterpart ;)
All went well until a couple of days ago!! I don't even know where and what to start cursing!! Luck? Money? Circumstances? Grrrrrr.......!! I'M CURSED!!
On the bright side, I managed to watch the sunset by the sea last week. Thanks to a special friend, I had the chance to go Port Dickson after more than a year from my last visit. Usually I put up a night but this time it was a last minute decision....cos we were bored of roundin KL and SERIOUSLY had no plans!! So having this chance itself is a blessing.
I became a kid again the moment i reached the sandy beach. It was kinda crowded but...WHO CARES!! I rolled up my jeans, ditched the heels in the car and got down to Earth. I walked along the shores, gettin my feet soaked in sand, water and salt. The feeling was amazing! I watched and observed other families especially children having their share of fun under the sun.
I was having memories and a slight twitch of envy + sadness...wishing I too had my tools to build sandcastles, run around scaring others with weird looking seaweed, burying someone in the sand, splashing water on others and getting myself drenched in the salt water. I managed to collect a few sea-shells. There were tiny little live ones too...tried to fork it out but then I decided not to. I sat on the rocks...big ones that fitted my size, of course!! Watched the beautiful scenery, not missing any inch of it!
I'm always mesmerized by sunsets, don't know why. The colour of subtle fire, reddish, orange, some shades of grey-blue and the transformation from day to night...WOW!! And it can never be seen this up close and personal than by the beach. As I was experiencing this, my mind was wondering about my life on this planet. What am I here for? What am I born to do? Why was I born? Where am I now at this point in my life?
I had a very private conversation with God there through my heart and soul. I didn't bother to find the answers to my questions but rather just live that very moment. I counted my blessings rather than sob over my mishaps in life. I kept on smiling cos my brain was functioning like MS PowerPoint showing slides of my life from baby till now.....all the good ones. I shared a few hillarious ones with my companion.
It was time to go and I felt reluctant to leave. But that's the fact of nature, every beginning has its ending. I became silent while walking back again along the shores to the car. I was getting anxious and worried about the moment I leave this place cos I've to live my normal life again!! Miracalously, the story called Footprints came to my mind. It's about a man who walks along the beach and notices 2 sets of footprints but there's no other soul there besides him. Then there's a voice he hears. It's God.....He is always by our side no matter where and when as long as we believe and have faith in Him. With that thought I leave the beach calmly and say my prayers as a form of gratitude to God for giving me this opportunity. I also in form Him that I'll be back again.
